UNIVERSITIES...CONTINUED

I'M SHITTING IT! 

Basically, in less than a month, I've made up my mind what I want to do with life, applied for uni and have an interview in less than a weeks time! EEEEEK!

I applied for (mostly) computer game design courses (despite my uncertainty) at Northampton, Brunel, and Staffodshire uni's and I have my Northampton interview on 5th Feb. 

Only problem is, it's at 10 in the morning and it takes an hour on the train. I am going to be ultra dead! I'm feeling a Starbucks in the morning!

I am under a lot of stress this year and trying to change jobs doesn't help.

HELP ME!

Delusional Women

What makes us women feel attractive? What makes us feel ugly and lowers our self-esteem?

 Men.

If your friend tells you  that you look ugly in a dress, your mind will tell you it's because she's jealous. If your man tells you that you look ugly in a dress, you will feel degraded, useless and want to hide away, am I right?.

So why is it that women choose to lose weight even if their man tells them it's too much?
If you are too thin for your man to find you attractive, what are you losing the weight for, other than to look like an expressionless model (who your man does not find attractive)?

I personally don't agree with women choosing to lose too much weight just because they "think they're fat". If your man tells you he loves your curves, this is not an insult; he is telling you that he adores running his hand down your human frame, as apposed to a brick wall.

If your man is happy with the way you look, then why shouldn't you be?
(Baring in mind I am referring to size 8/10 women who say they need to lose weight, when in fact they just need an eye test.)

Most of the models women aspire to look like have no boobs, no bum and no hips, which are the three things a mans eyes will follow.
If he wanted you to have no boobs, thighs, curves etc, he would go for men.

Skinny delusional women, think! Are you attractive to your other half, or to a model agency? Which matters more to you?

NEWYEAR

So I have yet to update you all on my very quickly-changing life of interesting events.

CHRISTMAS: came and went too quick (as usual). I was very happy at how much everyone loved their presents, as I put a lot of time and effort into them. I brought my mom an Ojon gift set as she recently ran out of her shampoo, the volume advance is very expensive but seems to work well on thin and fine hair. I accompanied her present with some lovely bangles and various chocolates from Hotel Chocolat. My dad on the other hand received a much wanted Skyrim (much wanted my me also!) along with an acre of the Moon. Yes that is correct, I brought him land on the moon. My original intention was to ship him there so I may get some peace, but the flights are too expensive, maybe next year?!

I received some perfect other presents including Alien perfume, a leather jacket, the Twilight Saga white book boxset, and some creepers.

NEW YEAR: was a blast, had an amazing time, despite having to do a 9-5 at work the next day, still partially drunk. (Note to self, book off New Year's Day)

BACK TO COLLEGE: Hasn't been so bad as the Christmas holidays opened up a few options for me for my future. 1) I'm not so resentful on going to uni as I have made my choices ready to apply for the year 2014 (gap year). 2) I also plan on applying for a job at a summer camp in America to fill in part of my gap year, giving my time to travel thus broadening my horizons. And I have began my driving lessons, so 2013 is looking a very promising and optimistic year for me, now I just have the slight problem of finishing my course at college with some decent grades! I know what is needed to achieve so I shall be kicking my own backside soon to get it done!

I just have to try and hope for the best!

I need these

Office DUNGEON ZIP WEDGE BLACK PU Shoes - Womens Ankle Boots Shoes - Office Shoes

THE Clothes Show Live 2012

On 7th December I attended The Clothes Show Live in Birmingham, an event that has blessed the city for 24 years running. I went a few years back and to my disappointment  there seemed to be more make-up than actual clothes. It's fair to say that it's an annual thing, yes the makeup took priority over the clothes even though I'm not much of a make-up lover. The show however was a must-see, Daisy Lowe was the official ambassador of the show and Peter Andre modeled his new clothing range, Alpha. The styling on this years catwalk shone, beautiful materials teamed with perfect shoes. A real inspiration to create something from my own wardrobe. The clothes modeled on the catwalk were day-to-day clothes, nothing too eccentric or exotic for the likes of this countries unpredictable weather. I was thoroughly impressed with the ending of the show, a stylish take and dance off of Psy's Gangnam style, left me entertained and was a great way to end the show!

Me and Lee Stafford

Carrying about 6 bags! 

Beautiful monochrome outfits

Christmas is upon us!

I have been slacking with my blogging! Firstly, there is the lack of time I have, juggling college, college work and a job. I have just had a sort of epiphany about my future. I was sat here, cleaning my room as per until I felt the urge to do college work. But not the college work that needs to be done, not the fun stuff but a game review for a pointless English lesson I have once a week. This proves to me that when it comes to work, I'd rather do the writing, weather its because i enjoy it more or because it's easier. from this, I gathered I would be better off studying writing as the work wouldn't be as such a chore.
My advance to others has always been, do what you're good at, not what you like doing. The reason for this:

If you have to do a whole career on what you like, you will do that much work that it will change from a hobby to a chore and you will dislike it.
If you do what you're good at, you will not have to find motivation to work, it will come naturally to you and will never be forced. you then still have your hobbies to enjoy and release the stress from the work.
I should listen to myself more instead of offering others advice.

On a lighter note, all my Christmas shopping is done and dusted, I'm about to wrap some of them. Getting excited now although I don't feel the spirit is there just yet!

I hope to report back in the next few days as I shall be going to the clothes show live <3

POEM: Spotlights

You caught my eyes with stunning charm, familiar smile.
You eyes and your eyes, my gosh your eyes. Like nothing I've seen so warm. You smile with your eyes and I smile though them back; textured, brown, rich but torn.
Innocent, dark and twisted. I could tell there was fault. winding me in with their magical power, your eyes are castle, your body the tower.
Innocent exterior, irrelevant now. When you turn to me ready, interior on show. Icy passion, blackness, spotlights, make out your eyes. Your warmth of unexpected kisses. Strong girl reject, weak weak weak, you can hardly keep up. Like you've been waiting forever for this type of love. Give in to the colour as you close off your sight, the darkness and spotlights of beautiful night, shocked as you're pleased from your brown eyed delight.